Toxic Love

 

I gave you everything and it still wasn’t enough.

It was never enough.

Falling in Love

Your voice shouldn’t tremble in the midst of someone who says they love you.

If you are stumbling over your words, may it be because joy has your knees weak.

But it should never be because of the fact that fear is swimming through your veins and doubt overfilling your heart in their presence.

I can’t agree with you or them and say it’s love dear.

Falling in love can be scary, but being in love should never be terrifying.

- Pierre Alex Jeanty (Her II)

3 A.M Thoughts

I don’t let people in.

He was the exception.

I deceived myself with the thought,

That he was different.

09.09 : Changes

 I’ve changed.

Irrevocably.

Permanently.

Pain does that to people.

I just don’t know if I’m getting used to the change…

Or the pain.

-unknown

12:15

 

Sometimes I get so tired of how much effort it takes to be mentally ok.

It’s like a checklist, a prescription for happiness.

-       Exercise x times a week

-       Practice these breathing exercises

-       Be mindful of your own thoughts

-       Get enough good sleep

-       Eat these things

-       Make sure to schedule in time every week to see friends and family

-       Talk to a stranger with a degree about your feelings and issues for 50 min a week

There you go, recipe completed. Happiness in a bottle.

I am so tired of thinking of the people in my life as a ‘support network.’

I am so tired of hearing about ‘mindfulness.’

I miss just being happy, without thinking about it, without having to put this much work into it.

 

-myselfsquared