3 A.M Thoughts

I don’t let people in.

He was the exception.

I deceived myself with the thought,

That he was different.

Just to find out later,

That it’s just misconception.

All he ever did was just complain.

He always made it clear that everything should be his way.

Without even considering that I have my own views too.

Still,

With time I started to trust his words.

Unaware of the fact,

That he was just trying to change who I was.

I wish I had the courage then,

To just let him go.

I wish he knew me better.

Loving him was like a never healing wound.

I knew it was bad.

I knew it was wrong.

I knew it was hard.

But I always felt like that’s what I want.

‘Why do you put up with him?’ some may ask.

I’d say ‘You would never understand, unless you’re a part. Because then, you would know that I have a broken heart.’

Leaving him will again just tear me a part.

So yeah, I gave him another chance.

To you, I may be weak.

But all I did was love.

You may think I’m stupid and want to understand why.

All that I can say is,

‘In some weird way, he completes me.’

He made me feel small each and every time we talked.

I should’ve fought back and just let him walk.

I knew he wasn’t right for me, but my heart couldn’t let go.

I wonder if he knew that, all I ever wanted was his love.

But now that I’m done,

I think I can cope.